Progress...

I know it's been forev, but I am doing a lot of waiting around here...and that takes up a whole lot of time! Well, I have been doing a lot of reading too. I checked out about every book the library had on natural childbirth and VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) and anything else.

I have to admit that with Graham, I didn't prepare at all. I could make the excuses of being in school more the full time and working on top of that and stuff, but the truth is....I don't have any excuses. I didn't educate myself at all. I guess my thought process was something along the "well, my body knows what to do more then I do..." lines. Which, is true. But the hitch is where I didn't even know what to expect my body to do. Does that make sense? Sure I know the basic stages of labor and whatev, but I didn't know my options and how to get that wonderful birth experience I thought I had in my head. So, I am educating myself this time around. Retropectivly, I have come to blame the doctors and people from last time less because, well, they were just doing what they were trained to do. I used the system, I gave my consent...but It was my fault not being informed.

This time around I have a whole lot of information and opinions and "fight" under my belt. Less then a month ago, I changed care providors. My OB was only ever luke warm about my chances and opinions for VBAC and gosh dang it I need a cheer leader! She also wasn't willing to wait more then 2 days after my due date to scedule another c-seciton. So I found a group of midwives that work in a closer hospital and I am much happier. My ideal would be a home water birth honestly...I know, sounds extreme. But the more I research the more I find that points to just those things that I feel birth should be. Anyway, it isn't the wisest choice since I am VBAC, not until I know I can do it. This will be like a first baby for me a many ways.

Anway, my body is doing a whole lot more by itself this time too. My cervix is already softening and dialating (which is the main reason we waited 11 days over with Graham). I am much more active and proactive this time too. And then yesterday I lost my mucus plug! All good signs. Just pray that this girl comes on time!